Before I start I'd like to state that I'm not writing this post because every other blogger in the world is, but to allow me to fully come to terms with the events of the year.
2013 seemed to go so quickly when I think about it, I'd only just got used to writing the date '2013' rather than '2012' and now it's 2014! wow. Then I really start thinking about everything that happened in 2013 and so much has happened/changed that it feels like it should have spread across more than just one year.
how strange.
Anyway, everything that happened during 2013 will seem really insignificant to anyone who reads this post but for me it's made a lot of difference to my general outlook. I'm usually quite a pessimistic person, as soon as Christmas is over I start my rants about how new year is a load of rubbish, it's over rated "why have a party about the date changing now when it changes every other day" etc. I always begin a year with such a negative outlook and then wonder why the year seems to just continue with disappointment and even when something good happens I don't really appreciate it - I just wonder 'how long will this last?'. It's quite sad really!
But small events that happened this year allowed me to change a lot. I started 2013 living at university being enrolled onto dual honors human biology and psychology (enrolled is the operative word here because I think I attended 1 lecture on this course through the whole of 2013, and probably about 7 lectures during 2012) I thought my lack of drive was just a normal student thing. I thought everyone who moved into university halls and had just finish college probably went through the same thing (this 'thing' being choosing to stay in bed and/or watch TV on the internet rather than go to lectures or do any work relating to the course they're on) which maybe they do - but this was totally out of character for me I've always been organised and enjoyed my studies (other than history a-level - but I'll try and block that from my memory!) and it wasn't until I came home for Easter and I started enjoying summer that I realised it wasn't a normal student thing I was going through but it was me trying to make excused for absolutely hating the course. I cant really pinpoint a specific reason why I hated the course, probably because I hated everything about it - the students, the lecturers, the lecture theatres - everything. Anyway, I emailed admissions on another course that the same university on a whim asking if they had any spaces left (risky business!) and to cut a boring story short - I am now a pharmacy student! (and I love it - I love everything about the course since the moment I got there :).)
Another main point I remember when I look back on 2013 is the summer we had. I usually say I like summer and then spend the whole of summer sitting indoors bored but this year I decided to actually go out and just enjoy it. I always used to think summer was only good if you had some really glamorous lifestyle or lived in a really nice area (neither of these apply to my life) but this year I just look everyday as it came and said yes to every opportunity I had to go out in the sun. I didn't even go on holiday this year and I still had an amazing summer. Hopefully we'll have another sunny summer this year!
The final part of 2013 that stands out to me when I look back is Christmas time. This year was the first year that I haven't felt excited for Christmas, I just wasn't interested in it all.
To add to my lack of Christmas Cheer, I failed my driving test on the 23rd of December (gutting) I didn't fail because of my poor driving or a mistake on my behalf but because some idiot couldn't drive at an appropriate speed (I won't get into too much detail as it'll turn into a complete rant) but I thought this was the icing on the rubbish-end-to-the-year cake, but I've come to terms with all of this now - I suppose it just wasn't supposed to happen. aaaand on Christmas eve I got engaged to my boyfriend and now my boyfriend has brought me a car!
Anyway, the jist of what I've being saying is that even though I've had a few parts of the year where I've felt like complete rubbish, I've had a pretty good 2013 and it's allowed me to have a completely different outlook when it comes to 2014 - I'm actually optimistic for a change!
“Even the darkest night will
end and the sun will rise.” ― Victor
Hugo, Les Misérables
